1. La lumière est le seul vrai dur à cuire de la galaxie. Peu importe que vous lui couriez après ou que vous fuyiez devant, elle file à la même vitesse implacable. C’est le flic suprême de l’espace.
Have you ever felt like you were moving as fast as you could, but still getting nowhere?
Most people start running because they want to change their bodies. They want to hit a certain weight, lower their blood pressure, or finish a local 5K. But for me, the journey was different. I didn’t start running to find a finish line; I started running because I didn’t know how to stand still.
Running to Escape, Running to Find
In the beginning, every step was an escape. I was running away from the noise in my head, the stress of my daily life, and the version of myself I no longer recognized. I thought that if I could just go fast enough and far enough, I’d eventually leave those problems behind in the dust.
But a funny thing happens when you spend hours alone on the pavement. You realize that you can’t actually outrun yourself. Eventually, the exhaustion strips away the masks you wear. When your lungs are burning and your legs are heavy, there is no room left for pretension.
I wasn’t running away from myself—I was running toward the person I was meant to be.
Why I Wrote This Book
My new book, « Running Away From Myself, » is the story of that realization. It isn’t a manual on gait or a guide to marathon nutrition. It’s a map of the internal landscape I crossed while my feet were hitting the asphalt.
It’s for anyone who has ever:
Used exercise as a way to process grief or anxiety.
Felt like a « fake » runner because they didn’t look like the people on magazine covers.
Discovered that the hardest mountain to climb is the one inside their own mind.
Through every blister, every failed workout, and every breakthrough sunrise, I learned that running isn’t about how fast you go. It’s about the courage to keep showing up when you’re tired of your own excuses.
Join the Journey
If you’ve ever felt lost, or if you’re looking for the motivation to take that first step (even if you’re terrified), I wrote this for you.
You can find my full journey, the lessons I learned on the road, and the peace I found in the stride in my new book.
You will need to drive some time before you can reach this quietness. The sound of your own breathing becomes audible. The wind comes to remind you that you are here and now, awake, not wandering through a subtle dream.
When you look up, it is not the sky that you see, you are looking into the infinite. The infinite beauty of this universe. The infinite beauty of this life. Let those moments flow through your retina, straight into your memory palace. Build a new room for them.
It is moments such as these that make the life so precious. Worship them like your own heart. And when you will be old enough, you will return to these rooms and you will smile.
I’ve walked for many kilometers, the soles of my boots worn thin by the endless path that stretched before me. Each step was a testament to my solitude, a journey through a landscape that seemed to exist outside of time. The world around me was a canvas of muted colors, the sky a pale, washed-out blue, and the earth beneath my feet a tapestry of browns and greens.
At first, the silence was a welcome companion. It was a stark contrast to the cacophony of my previous life, where noise was as constant as the air I breathed. Here, in this vast emptiness, the quiet was profound, almost sacred. It allowed me to hear the subtle sounds of nature—the rustle of leaves, the occasional whisper of the wind, the distant call of a bird that seemed to echo through the void.
But as the kilometers stretched into what felt like an eternity, the silence began to transform. It wasn’t just the absence of sound anymore; it became a presence, an entity in its own right. The quiet grew louder, not in volume but in intensity, filling my mind with its oppressive weight.
In this overwhelming silence, my thoughts began to take on a life of their own. They whispered to me, not with the gentle voice of introspection but with the eerie, echoing resonance of a voice from the abyss. “You are a photon into a supermassive black hole,” they murmured. The words were chilling, not just for their content but for the way they seemed to resonate with the very essence of my being.
The metaphor was apt. A photon, with its infinite journey, its path bent by the gravity of a black hole, spiraling closer and closer to an event horizon from which there is no return. Here I was, in this desolate expanse, feeling the pull of an existential gravity, drawing me into the depths of my own psyche.
The silence, once a balm, now felt like the void of space, cold and indifferent. My steps, once purposeful, now seemed futile, as if I were walking towards an inevitable singularity where all paths converge and all light, all sound, all essence of self would be consumed.
Yet, within this daunting realization, there was a strange peace. The acceptance of my journey, of my solitude, of the whispering truths in my head, brought a clarity. I was not just a traveler in this physical landscape but a voyager through the cosmos of my own mind, where every step was both an escape and a descent into the heart of a black hole, where even light must eventually surrender to darkness.
And so, I walked on, the silence now a companion in my journey towards understanding, towards the acceptance of my own insignificance in the grand tapestry of the universe, and perhaps, towards a new kind of enlightenment.